Come Away with Jesus

Come Away with JesusA sermon preached for the 9th Sunday after Pentecost on Mark 6:30-34, 53-56, Jeremiah 23:1-6, Ephesians 2:11-22 at St. Luke's Lutheran Church in Richardson, Texas.

When I started my first church in Detroit, Michigan, I got to know an African American woman in the neighborhood who had been ordained by her congregation not because she went to seminary, but because of her many spiritual gifts for ministry. Rev. Regina wanted to attend a neighborhood congregation, so she became involved at the church I was serving. I marveled at her deep spirituality. She would say things like, “Well I was going to ask Bob about being a reference for my application to seminary, but the Spirit said, ‘ask Alex.’” I thought to myself, “the Spirit talks directly to her?! I don’t think I have that spiritual gift.”

When people, even strangers, would see me in a clergy collar and ask me to pray for them because I “have a direct line to God,” I would pray for them but inside, I was thinking, “well, maybe, but not really—it’s Regina who has the direct line to God, not me.” Ministry for me early on was all about “doing.” I am a perfectionist, Type A, people-pleasing personality and being a pastor was about doing for others—visiting, preaching, leading youth, summer feeding programs, bible studies, worship, teaching, Vacation Bible School. These are all great things, but they do not encompass all that God calls me to as a pastor.

We live this pattern as a congregation and often as a denomination, church is a pattern of things we DO—we attend worship and sing, collect food for the hungry, have fellowship meals, prepare school kits and health kits, make quilts, make sure the building is maintained, cut the grass, write a newsletter, do Bible study, learn, give an offering, and pray for the sick. Our ELCA motto is “God’s work, our hands,” and it’s a great motto because doing these things is important, but again, it does not include all that God calls us to.

Over time, I realized that God really did want to speak to me, I just wasn’t listening. It took many years for my “doing” personality to learn to listen. My mom called me “motormouth” when I was six, and when I got too excited or worked up, she made me sit still on the couch without talking for five minutes. It felt like torture! 

In our Gospel reading from Mark, the disciples are also out “doing” ministry as well. Earlier in Mark chapter six, Jesus sent out the disciples two by two to teach, heal, and forgive others; in our passage today, the disciples have come back to tell Jesus all about what they have done. We at St. Luke’s have also been out doing ministry by asking strangers who check us out at the store and the doctor, or who wait on us in a restaurant, if they have any prayer concerns we can include in our prayers.

To the disciples and to us, Jesus says, "Come away to a deserted place all by yourselves and rest a while." Jesus spent time in a personal relationship with the disciples and Jesus calls us into the same kind of relationship. Jesus invites us to go out and spend time with him. Unless we intentionally take time to be with Jesus and plan it, we’re not going to get there; I learned I had to choose to take time to listen. Even in the Old Testament passage in Jeremiah, God expresses personal concern for the people. God is concern for the nation is expressed in the language of a personal relationship—my pasture, my people, my flock.

Jesus wants a personal relationship with us. Many of you filled out one of the blue cards as part of your offering, sharing what you experienced in asking to pray for strangers you encountered, and I’m going to read what some of you wrote down. Close your eyes and imagine yourself sitting with Jesus and the disciples as you hear these expeirences: peace; surprised they responded so well; a connection; concern for their safety; felt good sharing God’s love; hope; it was easier than I thought; encouraged. Can’t you imagine Jesus smiling at you and the disciples? How does Jesus feel listening to them and to us? Perhaps pride, love, joy, taking delight in who we are and who we are becoming!

Jesus was teaching the disciples a spiritual practice!! Keep your eyes closed and let the disciples and the others fade away, and now it’s just you and Jesus. We’re going to practice being with Jesus, and I invite you into a meditation of “beholding Jesus beholding you and smiling.” Take a few deep breaths to relax a bit more, and “behold Jesus beholding you and smiling.” We will share the communion of silent meditation for a moment.

This is just practice, so it’s ok if nothing happened! I learned this meditation about 4 ½ years ago when I did the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyola. I did this meditation, “beholding God, beholding me and smiling" for 5, 10, or 15 minutes every day, and nothing happened. But then on day 57, almost 2 months in, I had a physical sensation of something moving from by head to my chest and gut, from my mind to my heart. It really startled me and with a quick intake of breath, I opened my eyes, looked up and spontaneously said, “you really do love me, don’t you? I had been a pastor for twenty-four years, and this was the first time I had a physical sensation of being loved by God.

This is what it means to move from meditation to contemplation. Meditation is me doing the mental work or focus, and using my imagination, and then at some point, it shifts to God doing the work in me. Remember I started out as "motormouth" and sitting quietly felt like torture, so this will be much easier for you than for me! And your experience will be different—God will communicate with you in the way that you can receive it. I am a person of action and movement, so I needed a physical sensation. But a person of logic or the mind may receive a new thought; people who can’t turn their mind off, may experience a new kind of silence; you may receive a feeling of peace, or release of anxiety; others might get a feeling of expansiveness, like the sky just got bigger; others might get a sense of freedom or the lifting of a burden; an artist might receive a new image; a musician may hear a new sound; an engineer or carpenter may sense things fitting together in way they never have before.

Only by spending time with God—when I stop doing and start listening—that I’ve grown into a deeper relationship with God. It’s all about learning to make myself available to God offering my time and attention. That's why we call them spiritual practices--we always practice and never arrive at perfection! We also want to practice this together—because I can’t wait to hear how Jesus is delighting in you and God is communicating with you! We can grow in our faith just by learning how God is working in each other’s life. Your story of this experience may help someone else hear God in their life in a way that’s very different from mine.

Now when people joke that I have a direct line to God, and I think, “Heck, yeah! I do, but not because I’m a pastor, not because I’m a more spiritual or a better person, it’s only because other spiritual teachers taught me how to be quiet, to imagine, and to listen. The best news is, YOU HAVE A DIRECT LINE TOO! Want to try a new way of praying?!”

Our part is to show up—to make ourselves available for God to move, work, and communicate with us! The truth is there are as many different ways to have a relationship with Jesus as there are people. I invite you to practice this meditation on as many days as you can—you may have 5 minutes, 2 minutes, 3 minutes, 10 minutes. Set a timer on your phone so don’t have to worry about when to stop, being late for work or an appointment. Behold God beholding you and smiling; behold Jesus beholding you and smiling; behold Spirit beholding you and smiling—whatever image of God to which you feel most connected.

I often receive questions about distractions. They are always a part of prayer. You can do three things: 1). If they are minor, let them float by like boat on a river—don’t get into the boat, just let it pass by; 2). You can also acknowledge and notice the distraction without judgement, and then let it go; 3). If something occurs to you that you don’t want to forget, keep paper and a pen nearby, jot it down it and then come back to your meditation. Every choice you make to return your attention back to God is a prayer!

Mark 6:33 gives us a great image for pursuing this kind of relationship with Jesus. “Now many saw them going and recognized them, and they hurried there on foot from all the towns and arrived ahead of them.” People were “hurrying there on foot” to spend time with Jesus. What does it feel like to have relationship with Jesus that we hurry to spend time with him in rest, in meditation, being loved and delighted in by him? We go out into the world to do our work, and continue to ask people you meet if they have any concerns you can pray for—and then we hurry back to Jesus to tell him what happened and to be loved and strengthened. You can continue with your devotional readings, and prayers for other people, and then spend time listening in quiet meditation as God takes delight in you!

In my prayer journal from Ignatian exercises, I wrote in the margins early on, “Prayer is a relief—not a task.” This is what our passage from Ephesians is ultimately talking about—what relief and joy come from being connected to Christ. “But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ…In him the whole structure is joined together and grows into a holy temple in the Lord; in whom you also are built together spiritually into a dwelling place for God.” You are a dwelling place for God—and we together, as St. Luke’s, are a holy temple in the Lord! As we each grow in our relationship with God in Jesus Christ, the stronger our temple becomes, the more love and forgiveness we have to share with Richardson and the world! So "come away to a deserted place all by yourselves and rest a while” with Jesus your Lord.

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Religion and Politics

Religion and PoliticsA sermon preach for the 7th Sunday After Pentecost on Mark 6:14-29, Amos 7:7-15, and Ephesians 1:3-14 at St. Luke's Lutheran Church in Richardson, Texas.

Our texts from Mark and Amos sound like plotlines from the HBO series, Game of Thrones, the top TV show which recently received 22 Emmy nominations.

King Herod would fit right in with the Lannister clan who rules Westeros, as they all redefine family according to their own passions, and throw extravagant parties where death is on the menu. John the Baptist believed that it was his duty to speak spiritual truth to political power and he admonished King Herod for marrying his brother’s wife. Because of a foolish oath to his daughter and to save his image, Herod behaved as many power-hungry people do: he sacrificed another life for his own gain, beheading the prophet and serving up John’s head on a platter.

Amos could be a prophet from Essos who, like Daenerys Targaryen, sought to free people from oppression, slavery, poverty, abuse, and injustice. Amos also spoke spiritual truth to political power: King Amaziah and Israel had forsaken their covenant with the God who lavished them with liberation from Egypt, the promised land, forgiveness, mercy, and steadfast love. Amos accused them in Chapter of 5 of “selling the innocent for silver, and the needy for a pair of sandals; trampling on the heads of the poor and denying justice to the oppressed” and held up a plumb line for God’s justice. But King Amaziah didn’t want to hear this prophetic voice so he sent Amos away to southern Judah. It’s like being sent to The Wall in the north in Game of Thrones where winter is coming and there is no protection for the vulnerable.

In real life, no matter the setting or the era, winter is always coming for the poor, the vulnerable, the hungry, the homeless, the immigrant, the imprisoned. If we hold up a plumb line of God’s justice in front of our society, what do we see? 18% of children live in poverty; 34% of the homeless population is under the age of 24; almost 40,000 homeless people are veterans; 16 million American kids struggle with hunger each year; CNN reported on a survey last year that 66% people of color experience prejudice in this country as a “very serious” problem.

Ever since God called Moses from the burning bush to liberate the Hebrew people from slavery at the hands of Pharaoh, a primary role of religion has been to speak truth to power. Our faith calls us out of the dignity and love endowed by our Creator to admonish, remind, and hold accountable, those in power so that our institutions, government, and public life promote the common good, and the well-being of all.

But this make us uncomfortable, doesn’t it? Polite company dictates that we should not talk about religion and politics at all, much less put them together, but Amos and Mark do not give us a pass today. Many Christian traditions through history prefer making religion and spirituality private and personal—a morality-based faith with heaven as the prize, and church as the rule-enforcer, all the while neglecting the direct implications of our faith for a just economic, social and political life.

But an exclusively privatized faith is not consistent with the witness of Scripture, nor the tradition of the Hebrew prophets, and it is certainly not how Jesus embodied God’s presence in the world. Jesus also held up the plumb line of justice against political and religious powers in their treatment of the outcast, the sick, the marginalized, the poor, the widow, the hungry, women, and the children. Through his healing power—Jesus restored and reconnected the marginalized to their social standing in the Temple and the public square. Spiritual and physical healing by Jesus had social, political, and economic implications as they became re-connected with their community.

In fact, the word “religion” comes from the Latin word “ligare,” which means “to join” or “link.” This is often understood to mean the linking of the human and the divine, but it is also about being linked and connected to each other. The Greek word “polis”—which gave us the word “politics”—simply means “city” or “public forum” where people come together. Despite our discomfort with it, the public square is the very place where live out our connections—to God, to each other, and to the common the good. Religion and politics have been bound together since the beginning of human community.

Franciscan priest Richard Rohr (to whom I am indebted for many ideas in this sermon!) who established the Center for Action and Contemplation goes so far as to say, “There is no such thing as being non-political. Everything we say or do either affirms or critiques the status quo. To say nothing is to say something: To say nothing is to say that the status quo—even if it is unjust and deceitful—is apparently okay.”

That is not to say that as believers, we will all agree on the best course of action, or one policy solution on any issue. People of good faith have and will always have a diversity of opinions on how best to move forward. It is the illusion that our faith is private and has nothing to do with the public sphere of life that John the Baptist and Amos ask us to dispel today.

To move into the public sphere, we must always return to the core of our faith out of which our social and political action arises. Ephesians gives us one of the most beautiful descriptions in Scripture of what God has done for us:

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, just as he chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and blameless before him in love. He destined us for adoption as his children through Jesus Christ, according to the good pleasure of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace that he freely bestowed on us in the Beloved. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace that he lavished on us.

Faith doesn’t get better than this—God always takes the initiative to “religion us”—to re-connect us with the ground of our being—God’s creative and redeeming love. Even though the plumb line of our life is crooked, God has created us and links us to him eternally as beloved children, freely offering unmerited forgiveness and undeserved grace. Instead of seeing our imperfection, God sees the straight plumb line of Christ. God showers us in lavish love that changes our present, redefines our past, and seals our future.

Indeed, this is the purpose of our prayer and worship—to experience the lavish love of God that defines who we are—child of God, loved by God, made by God, saved by God, returning to God, always connected and re-connected to God through grace. Out of this experience of being loved, we move into the public square to advocate for justice, peace, food, housing, opportunity, dignity, and respect for all people, whom God made and also lavishly loves!

Ephesians gives us the final vision toward which we move "…God has made known to us the mystery of his will, according to his good pleasure that he set forth in Christ, as a plan for the fullness of time, to gather up all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth."

Again, Richard Rohr says, “God’s love always yearns to save and transform us and the world. From Genesis to Revelation, we see images of God’s intended and preferred vision for us: a world made whole, with people living in a beloved community, where no one is despised or forgotten, peace reigns, and the goodness of God’s creation is treasured and protected as a gift.”

We live at the intersection of religion and politics everyday—there’s no way not to. Amos and all the Prophets, John the Baptist and Jesus call us to live in the world fed and led by God’s lavish love for us and all of creation. French poet and essayist, Charles Peguy said it this way, “Everything begins in mysticism and ends in politics.” Our inner world—must inform our outer world. When our political, economic and social structures mistreat or oppress any individuals, the role of us as God’s faithful people, is to re-ligare—to reconnect our structures and institutions with the values of justice, fairness and the common good. Such activism has enabled the reunification of some children with their immigrant parents last week.

Connecting religion and politics has also always been part of our Lutheran tradition. When you look up "Advocacy" on the ELCA website, you will read:

As members of the ELCA, we believe that we are freed in Christ to serve and love our neighbor. God uses our hands, through our direct service work and our voices, through our advocacy efforts, to restore and reconcile our world. Through faithful advocacy, the ELCA lives out our Lutheran belief that governments can help advance the common good.

ELCA advocacy works for change in public policy based on the experience of Lutheran ministries, programs and projects around the world and in communities across the United States. We work through political channels on behalf of the following biblical values: peacemaking, hospitality to strangers, care for creation, and concern for people living in poverty and struggling with hunger and disease.

Together, we achieve things on a scale and scope that we could never do otherwise. When we act as a coordinated network of advocates and reach out to officials on relevant, timely issues, we effectively impact public policies.

There is an entire list of advocacy and justice issues you can get involved in through our church including food insecurity, keeping immigrant families together, gun violence, support for veterans, maternal and infant health, farm policy, climate change, homelessness, and more. You can sign up for Advocacy alerts on the ELCA website and join local efforts for justice with Faith in Texas—religious communities working together to promote a public life that seeks the common good. We can’t do everything, but we can pick one issues that breaks our heart, get informed, and communicate with our legislators.

We do not live with Amos in Scripture, or in Westeros of Game of Thrones, yet the abuse of power, and the cries of injustice are certainly as real. God calls us to speak spiritual truth to political power because God’s lavish love always yearns to save and transform the world and calls us to be a part of this work, creating a straight plumb line for justice in God's kingdom on earth!

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Radical Hospitality for the Stranger

Radical Hospitality for the StrangerA sermon preached for the Seventh Sunday after Pentecost on Mark 6:1-13, Ezekiel 2:1-5, 2 Corinthians 12:2-10 on July 8, 2018 at St. Luke's Lutheran Church in Richardson, Texas

It’s a little disconcerting to hear Jesus’s words today when we might be unpacking from our summer vacation or getting ready to pack for a trip yet to come. I just returned from the Youth  Gathering and will be packing for vacation to New Mexico in a couple of weeks. My standard packing list is a page long with every conceivable contingency considered. I print it out for each trip and cross off what I don’t need—like mittens and a scarf for summer vacation. 

Jesus gave the disciples a packing list when he sent them out to share forgiveness, healing and freedom from all that breaks and possesses us: staff. They got one thing--a walking stick that could double as protection against wild dogs.

When we come up with a list of what’s required to do effective ministry and share God’s grace with new people, our list is pretty long. A standard church inventory is 2-3 pages long (page one is pictured)—and we could add a lot more to it, like curriculums, coffee, donuts, a parking lot, and paid staff. Jesus also had a list of what was required for effective ministry: 2 disciples + Jesus’ authority (the Holy ChurchInventoryJesusShortPackingListSpirit). I hope you’re feeling as uncomfortable as I am with the difference between our lists and Jesus’s lists.

We’re only six chapters into the Gospel of Mark and Jesus sent out the disciples for mission that required a radical dependence on the generosity and hospitality of others. Hospitality to the stranger was a cultural expectation in ancient Israel promoted frequently by the prophets of the Hebrew Scriptures. Jesus asked his disciples to embrace a radical vulnerability when he sent them out two by two with nothing but a walking stick and the power of his authority and Spirit. Most itinerate preachers of the day would at least carry an extra shirt and beggar’s bag, but Jesus didn’t even allow that. Jesus promised that some would accept them, feed them, and rejoice in God’s love and healing power. Others, perhaps even their own hometown and family, would reject them, deride them, and refuse to listen—as happened both to Ezekiel in our Old Testament reading and to Jesus in our passage from Mark.

The only place I have experienced this kind of immediate, radical hospitality of a stranger was while traveling in Zimbabwe in Southern Africa during in seminary. When we got out of Harare, the capital city and into the rural areas, I learned that taking in travelers was a historical necessity for survival in the bush, so you would not be eaten at night by wild animals. A student at the university took a friend and I to his home in the eastern part of Zimbabwe. On the way, we got out and walked through some of the rolling hills, called the Eastern Highlands. Unexpectedly, we came upon a hut, and after the customary greetings, the old woman who lived there asked us if we would be staying for dinner. Radical hospitality toward the stranger.

Another weekend, a friend and I traveled to an indigenous Christian church that lived cooperatively on a rural farm, grew their own food, and worshipped under a tree. When arrived, they simply took us in. They included us in their meals, gave us lodging with one of their members, invited us to their evening prayer service, and we worked with them in the field during the day. At break time, we received a cup of tea and serving of vegetables like everyone else. It was so humbling to be received without question, and to realize that without their hospitality, we would not survive a night outside in the rural area alone. We were vulnerable; this kind of dependence opened us up to relationships, human connection, and Christian fellowship that we never would have experienced if we could have a booked a night at a Holiday Inn (which didn’t exist of course). We brought small gifts, but what we could bring was nothing in comparison to the hospitality and the sheer survival they offered us. Radical hospitality toward the stranger.

This experience gave me a window into understanding why Jesus sent out his disciples this way, with such vulnerability where they could go hungry, have nowhere to stay, or flunk miserably. In our reading from 2nd Corinthians, the Apostle Paul called this ministering out of our weakness so that the grace and power of God can be made manifest through us. When we get ourselves, our ego, our strength, and even our resources out of the way, we become a vehicle, an open vessel for Jesus’s power to come through us. Such a mission requires a radical dependence on God.

Jesus called the disciples and calls us to approach ministry out of our poverty, out of our need for God, out of our weakness, not out of our riches, for that is when relationships and human connections are made—person to person, vulnerability to vulnerability, stranger to stranger. Jesus calls us to minister without hiding behind our communal accomplishments and accoutrements, for when we are weak, then we are strong! God’s power is made perfect in our weakness.

The great news is that the disciples succeeded! They cast out many demons and anointed the sick and cured them—not because they had a 3-page list of assets and a 6-point strategic plan, but because of Jesus’ Spirit and authority working through them! There was no way the disciples could take the credit for their success—they went out with nothing—so God got the glory. That’s what Jesus calls all of us to do—to do ministry that we cannot do on our own, ministry that can only succeed through the power of Jesus, so that God gets the glory for success and not us.

For those of you who have been members at St. Luke’s for a long time, it’s hard not wish for the days of old with two services, triple the households, more staff, and more resources. And yes, church was fun and felt more successful when it was larger. But the truth of the Gospel is that St. Luke’s already has everything it needs for God’s mission in this time and place! This was true before I got here, it’s been true since the beginning of the church, it will be true tomorrow, and next year, and the next decade regardless of what the budget says, or the repairs needed to the building. (I’m not saying that buildings and budgets are unimportant; they are tools for mission, they are not the mission itself!)

Here’s the list of what Jesus needs for mission in Richardson: 2 disciples with a walking stick, + the Holy Spirit. We like to make it more complicated than that, but it really isn’t.

The only thing Jesus needs to grow the church and its mission is you and your faith in Jesus, walking beside you and your faith in Jesus. You’ll notice that Jesus didn’t send those first disciples into the synagogues where people were already praying, he sent the disciples into towns, villages and homes—out in the world to the stranger and the outcast who have not yet heard of Jesus’s love!

Church commentators say that the 21st century is more like the first century in its mission than ever before. People aren’t coming in here to experience God’s love, Jesus is sending us out there to save souls by sharing God’s unmerited grace and forgiveness. The mission of the church is to make sure every person we meet hears that God loves them no matter what. There are so many who have felt shamed and judged by Christians; it’s our mission to say that there’s nothing so awful in their past or in their present or in their heart that will prevent God from loving and forgiving them.

Now, we don’t have a culture like the first century or parts of very rural Africa that expects hospitality to be extended to strangers and travelers in the way I have described. But we do have an opportunity to talk with a new person every time we leave our house or apartment bringing with us a radical hospitality to the stranger. When you go to the doctor, the grocery store, a restaurant, or to Walmart, you encounter a stranger who checks you in or checks you out, takes your order, waits on you, or stands in line next to you. Many of these people would love to have you pray for them.

It’s as simple as saying, “Thanks for your help! Do you have any needs I can include in my prayers today?” When we’re in a restaurant, Dan and I try to ask the server, “we’re going to say a prayer before we eat and wonder if you have anything you’d like us to pray for?” We’ve had some people say, “No thanks, I’m doing pretty good.” And others say, “oh yes, thank you!” We’ve been asked to pray for kids’ starting kindergarten, sick grandma’s, upcoming surgery, and more. Many people are touched that we really see them as a person and care enough to ask! Not everyone will say yes. Shake off the rejection, don’t take it personally, and ask the next person, who just might be waiting and hoping that someone will care enough to ask what they need, and be reminded God loves them.

We need to start practice this simple conversation with strangers this week! Carol has been working tirelessly with Jerry and the Council to open Great Achievers Preschool in our education wing this August! We have a wonderful opportunity to enter relationships with new people who need to know that God loves them through our care, our prayers, and our radical hospitality toward the stranger. We all want to be comfortable talking with new people! We want disciples like you and you and you, who will be ready to serve coffee to parents dropping off kids at Preschool and asking how you can pray for them. We need grandparents ready to read stories, help celebrate birthdays or to “adopt-a-family” so that when some of those families visit worship, they will see a familiar face who will help them find the nursery, the bathroom, their way around a Lutheran hymnal, and the coffee and the donuts (the 3rd Lutheran Sacrament!).

StrangerMissionCardIt’s time to practice being a disciple who radically trusts his presence with us. The youth passed out cards, and I challenge every one of you to ask one person this week how you can pray for them. Write down where you did this and bring it next week as part of your offering, and put it in the offering plate. Maybe it will be so fun and freeing that you will ask two or three or ten more!

Jesus made it clear that as his followers, we are not just passive recipients and beneficiaries of his love and grace. Jesus gives us a mandate to witness and to pray, to heal and to love. When I go on vacation, I’ll probably use my packing list because I’ll need a change of clothes, but Jesus has already given all we need to step boldly into mission today, and that’s you, in vulnerability and weakness + Jesus to offer prayer and radical hospitality toward the stranger. When we succeed, God gets the glory!


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Still Growing at 56!

Still Growing at 56Today Dan is cooking my gourmet birthday dinner—a tradition he started right after we were married, so this is dinner number 27 or so! Even though we are new to Frisco, we have fortunately met a few friends who will join us tonight, and my sister Julie, who lives in Dallas, will be able to attend for the first time!

As I approach age 56 next week, I have been reflecting on how long it has taken to really know and understand myself and how I am wired. It was a great relief in seminary to take the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator which suggested that my personality is ENFP—extroverted, intuitive, feeling and perceiving. That is, I am extroverted in that I gain energy from being with others. I take in information intuitively rather than through the five senses. I process information and act based on gut feelings rather than a logical thinking process. Rather than making quick, decisive judgements, I make decisions slowly by perceiving and keeping open all options. The Myers-Briggs test gave me the first real concrete step toward self-acceptance: I was naturally wired this way at birth, so I could stop feeling that I was bad or wrong somehow, and I could stop judging others who were wired differently from me. (There are 16 types in the Myers-Briggs inventory—how freeing!)

Since then, I have learned that I have what some spiritual leaders call high “mercy” gifts. This comes from having both intuitive and feeling traits. I easily feel the pain of others. This can be a great help in pastoral ministry; however, the challenge is to release others’ pain without carrying it around inside of myself. It has taken almost five decades and two major illnesses (breast cancer and severe chronic migraines) for me to accept that being intuitively and emotionally receptive also means that I am physically sensitive. (I tire more easily than many, and I have food allergies and sensitivities; migraines make me sensitive to light, strong smells and so on). I always desire to do more than my body allows, while it repeatedly finds ways to put the brakes on. I have been fighting this dynamic my whole life.

Adding to my struggle, like most ENFP people, I am an “ideas person.” I have at least 100 thoughts and ideas spinning in my head at any given time. I began as new pastor at St. Luke’s in Richardson, Texas three months ago; last week I started rattling off to Dan the 100 things I would like to do yesterday. My mind keeps spinning and my body keeps saying, “Slow down!” I asked Dan, “Why would God give me a mind with so many ideas, and a body that can’t execute most of them?”

Like a 2x4 to the head, the Spirit stopped the mental spinning and gave me the answer: because then I need others to accomplish anything significant. If I had the chance to go it alone, I would, but that’s not faithfulness. God calls us into community, mutuality, relationship, vulnerability and shared mission. My sensitive body not only reminds my ego and my will that I cannot accomplish much on my own, but also that that’s not how God wires any of us! Duh! I’m not sure why it’s taken nearly 56 years to deeply understand this, but better now than not at all! #neverstopgrowing.


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The church does not have a mission in the world, God's mission has a church in the world.